So anyway I would like

So anyway I would like to dedicate this to the girl on the bus. Not that their was anything special about this girl. I mean not that she was not special... Oh you know what I mean. It could have been any girl of similar age that I don't know. You'll see

So anyway I got on this bus and sat on one of those double seats. Sitting there as the bus slowly pulls up and idly looking at the people on the bus and once I have established that I only vaguely know one person on the bus (I give him to good old raised eyebrow hello acknowledgement). Right so I stare at the people coming on the bus... and then I see someone who looks vaguely like someone I know. So I am looking at this girl (through like foggy misty glass thing due to condensation) and my mind wanders, you know.. "is that... nah.. maybe... I thought I saw her, although looks more like" and before you know it the girl has noticed I am staring at her (although by this time my train of thought has travelled at least 3 stations down the line and is currently on it's way to "I wonder what everyone is doing tonight") and of course now the girl has seen me staring at her I'm dead. Because you can't help but look at her again because of being stupid and when you do she of course sees you look at her. So you away really quickly, probably too quickly and all. And then because she's like, "hmm why's he staring at me?" and I'm thinking "I hope she doesn't think I was staring at her" and then you start to wonder if the girl is staring at you so of course you look up... and see that either (a) she is staring at you or (b) she wasn''t but detects that you are and looks up to see you staring at her, With me it was the first, and of course I look away immediately and then think "oh no now she definately thinks I am staring at her" and she probably thinks in my case at least "why's that weirdo staring at me."
Right at this point I would like to interject my 3 reasons why someone thinks you are staring at someone else...

-You actually ARE staring at them
-You happen to be looking in their direction and faze out
-You look at them briefly but not long enough to actually stare at them and then faze out
(also how long you look at them before it becomes a stare is not actually dependent on how long you look at them but how long they see you staring for, also the more times you have been staring the shorter the time it takes for a look to become a stare)

Yeah so anyway, I decided that the best plan of action right now is to not too look at her but out the window. Untill my mind thinks... "what happens if she sits next to me? Hmmm. the bus is kinda full so if she does well then she' s probably doing it coz It's full and she has to sit by someone." So then she does sit by me. Ahh now what? Hmmm so I just sit there avoiding looking at her all the way till she gets off. But here I having being thinking over my long monlogue and realise that whatever I do. I CAN'T LOOK AT HER AS THE BUS PULLS OFF AND GOES PAST HER. Because if you do and she looks she then thinks you are definately some weirdo stalker, which I am not but still. So I sit there very firmly not looking.

See the problems that accidently looking at people coz they look like someone you know does for you? It sucks. Grrrrr. So from now on I am not looking ever again.

I can't find the mouse help...

Man I wrote some stuff

Man I wrote some stuff here then I lost it grrrrr...
But basically my internet works again yeah! that looks lovely and stuff
Right last nite I had a dream. It went something like this...
*shimmer shimmer shimmer*

Wow... funniest film ever. It

Wow... funniest film ever. It was like you know. Great... brilliant... Groovey ladies
The brady bunch are soooooo cool. I want white flares as well. Ah yeah

I've got night of the

I've got night of the living dead the original on video. I think I will watch it yay. Oh yeah and the network is down at home so I have to use my dad's computer again
I blame windows. Stupid windows. Grrrrrrr

Oh i'm back. I'll right

Oh i'm back. I'll right more later but first I have to go put some nice new twiddly imitation gibson les paul twiddle dials on my guitar. yay! Covered in glitter. Rockandroll man

Ohh as I am going

Ohh as I am going away for a bit can I ask.. that everyone who reads this site do something for me... go into the start menu. click programs->accessories->Paint then when in paint can you draw a picture of yourself. It's gotta be in paint. Save it as a gif or a jpg or a bitmap and e-mail it to me. Mark.walley@ntlworld.com

DO IT FOR THE SAKE OF HUMANITY!!

or just to keep me happy

Flash is fun. I think

Flash is fun. I think I am going to make some flash stuff for my site. I think the first thing to do will be to make a lardpony for mr. Lardpony out of flashness. Yeh!

Hmm how odd.. I won't

Hmm how odd.. I won't say what though.. but odd.. don't worry it's too do with computer stuff not people stuff

Yeah so for my good friends kate and caff and made this... It's a sort of present well maybe a like a card, and more to their website than to them...
I was bored..
so go look at their website or whatever

it's still christmas

Hooray it's christmas everyone and

Hooray it's christmas everyone and man do I feel fat... so very fat.. yay for christmas food. Ohh my stomach.. oh the pain...

mmmmm chocolate money

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday dear Jesus
Happy Birthday too you

(okay so he was probably born in september or october sometime but still)

So anyway... Someone keeps on

So anyway... Someone keeps on giving me hits from somewhere in Bristol. And I can't think of anyone who lives in Bristol. I can think of one person who sort of goes to a uni there and I can think of someone else who lived in the bristol/bath area... but I doubt either of them look at my website... So whoever it is sign my guestbook and tell me.

Also someone from Illford? where's that??

Proved I can wrap presents.

Proved I can wrap presents. Yeah...

I just saw lord of

I just saw lord of the rings. And ain't it great! yeah that was one good film...
Also you may have noticed it is christmas tomorrow. Yeah that rocks.

I am going now. where is everyone??

Argh stupid computer... flash just

Argh stupid computer... flash just crashed on me destroying half an hours work. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Most boringest day online yet.

Most boringest day online yet. The only thing that happened of note is Lardpony's new site went online. That was it. The internet is a dull place. However AvP2 is not a dull thing it is fun. Jump Jump Slice Bang. Yay! Okay so maybe I am just trying to compensate for things being dull.

DULL

GRrrrr don't you just hate

GRrrrr don't you just hate it when... You lose long things you wrote. Yes as always I had lots of thoughts on a train, although not as much as normal it has to be said. The problem is this... I have lost the paper I wrote them down on. It's ridiculous. I wrote about a page (I think) of A4 and I can't find it. I have found 3 other pages though but they are old and irrelevant and I have forgotten them. But I did find in my pockets... I found.. a serviette for BAGELMANIA I ate a bagel in london and felt very cosmpoliton.

Um what else...
I saw Noel Gallagher.
My friend Caff didn't come round Jaclyns house
I got given a present to give to someone else
I saw a bit of conan the babarian
I got a free promo demo ep courtesy of Halo. S'alright.

umm that is all I can think of.

HOHOHO... merry christmas and all...

HOHOHO... merry christmas and all...

Click Here for a christmas card

Hey everyone I have a

Hey everyone I have a really long London post tomorrow. YEAH. should be good. It was fun

I have some cool things to say but I will give one away.
I got N*Sync and *pop* yeah!!

DiRtY pOP!

I am in London. I

I am in London. I have just bought a pair of lovely flared trousers which are soooo cool. And I have really really cold hands. The end

Thought I would post. I

Thought I would post. I am going to London tomorrow. So I get some nice stuff in Camden and see my friend HELEN. now the thing about this is... umm what was it.. oh yeah. I get to go on a train journey which means. yes that is right.. loads of cool ideas to write in my weblog. Yeah. Trains rule. I wil try to check my guestbook in London. hooray. So someone leave stuff saying what everyone is doing on friday so I am in the know even if I do nothing. yeah.

LONDON WOOOHOO

"I love the silence, the

"I love the silence, the silence is killing me." I have no working sound card so I can't listen to lovely music. Grr. I will have it fixed soon though. Along with my evil evil evil hard drive which has mysteriously lost 33 gb of storage. How does that happen?

Still on other notes of stuff that is not to do with anything computer related..

It's the school dinner dance tonight. $20 (I don't have a pound sign on my keyboard) for a ticket then another $40 at least to rent a suit. Then maybe another $10 or so on general stuff, like taxi's and drinks. (I don't drink alcohol particularly okay?). so all in all $70 quid. For which price I could get... A lovely indie boy distort pedal or someother lovely effect. See so I didn't go. However I did see jaclyn before she left getting all dressed up by Chantal and Kate. Quite amusing. Ah Pixxe'll be all proud.

I had a religious thought in R.S. today. Quite inexplicable really. I mean usually I don't have any there but today I did. It was about stuff. But it was very good and made me think. Was it a religious experience? discuss.

my computer works again YAY!

my computer works again YAY!

My computer is bust again.

My computer is bust again. grrr

fixed my site. Successfully. Woohoo

fixed my site. Successfully. Woohoo ain't I brilliant. and modest. so very modest.
In other news I recently have acquired a spoon. It helps me think around corners.

Oh by the way I changed the design of my site... I think it's on version 4.4 now I think. Somewhere like.

I my hurriedness to upload

I my hurriedness to upload my new site I had forgotten to fix the button to go to the guestbook. I'll fix it soon but for now

Sign it here instead
Also mike's and stoob's links don't work at the moment, I'll fix it when I get home promise...

Having only used Jaclyn's (56k

Having only used Jaclyn's (56k connection, not very fast) and my Dad's (516k but sluggish due to all the stuff he runs) I forgot how fast a cable modem can. Be. Now not wanting to brag but my computer has just had a fresh install of everything and is fast and has a cable modem. I realised I had to download flash to see some stuff work. It says 'click here and when the picture moves you are done, this'll take a few minutes' (okay I am paraphrasing here). Me: *click*. Picture: *shwinggggggggggg*. Me: "oh it's done. YAY!"

aahhhhhhhhhhh

Had brief nightmare. Dispite all

Had brief nightmare. Dispite all my downloads I still couldn't find my beloved font ANDY. the greatest font ever. but then I did find it. hooray. So now I have it again
I know it is late because I realise that I have spelt despite wrong up their but it took me untill now to realise that was what was wrong with it. Not anything else. Odd.

Ah well in other news
I did some more christmas shopping today. I just realised that even though it is very close to Christmas I have avoided mention it til now. And now I have and everything is all of a sudden of no difference to what it was before ah well. Still doesn't matter Christmas is sooooon. Hooray.

Guess where I am writing

Guess where I am writing this from today? guess? go on... MY OWN COMPUTER... YES! wooohooo... It finally connects to the internet, after much hardship and trials it connects oh yes. HALLEJIUAH!!! Amazing... Thank God everyone. hehehehehe.
So once connected I did the following
Downloaded a firewall
Got all the latest virus checks
Update windows
Got the new Messenger
Download 123 e-mails. AMAZING.
And got the new real jukebox. It's bizzare really it is. It acts like it wants to be windows XP. However it does seemed to have fixed my sound problems which is always good. Hey this means I can upload my new version of the site soon. Amazing.. does the fun never stop??

I have had too date

I have had too date 3089 hits. Yay! this makes me feel all something... I Don't know what.. More christmas shopping for me today

What's with msn? it just

What's with msn? it just signed me out for no reason whatsoever. I would like to apologise to Mike, Seb and Helen all of whom I was talking to when this lamantable incident happened...

Mike Jones!!

I realise I managed to

I realise I managed to post 4 times yesterday. This makes me quite worried. I am thinking that this might be called SAD. So in conclusion I will not post for the rest of today. Okay so that's a lie I am sure I will post again. This is stupidly addictive. Unless... No... Ah whatever. I am off to learn how to play Radiohead.

there are certain things in

there are certain things in the world i don't understand
consider yourself listed.

Groovery. I have done some

Groovery. I have done some of my christmas shopping but my bank is being odd with my money not letting me have some of it. How bizzare. I don't know. Ah well... that's it

Right did some advanced fiddling

Right did some advanced fiddling with code for mine and mike's site. Basically it means the archive works good and proper. and links go where they should go. Good Good. Who wants to go into town with me?

I was pondering on the

I was pondering on the nature of my insanity. Decided that it is not actually insanity... Because I am far to coherent and lucid for that. So I don't know what it is. I am feeling less stressed and stuff now but still not back to my normal self. I have to do this sunday school thing at 3:00 today, and also I have to find a year 12 time table thing to know when my year 12 mocks are. Because currently I only know when my year 13 resits are. So Ashik, Kate, Caff or Chantal you wanna tell me when I have my R.S and Psychology year 12 exams it would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

I was bored so I

I was bored so I was seeing if mikes mini site thing would register on any search engines... it came up with this site...
Chris Griffin and Mike Jones Exhibition
Mike I never knew you where so talented...

Faith, you're driving me away

Faith, you're driving me away
You do it everyday
You don't mean it
But it hurts like hell

Started work on getting that

Started work on getting that lazy bum mike ( I love you really man) to start posting on my website, in a prototype for others so everyone can have their say on the amazing website that is mine... However I don't have an ftp program on this computer so I have to do it on Jaclyns. and I have to use notepad for that. Which kinda sucks, but still. Should be up over the weekend sometime. I will talk to mike about it. Mike don't do anything with that e-mail. It may explode...

hguh?

hguh?

Alrighty ho who thinks this

Alrighty ho who thinks this is a good idea? I let other people write where I write. See I dunno how great an Idea it is. But it sounds kinda fun, so I won't be the only person writing on this site. But instead like other people can write as well. Seems to make sense. I dunno. I think mike needs it to keep him sane. I really should buy myself a website and subhost lots of people. So they can say irrelevant stuff too. Yeah that would be fun.

mngghrrrrrrrrhhhh. Messenger is bust. I

mngghrrrrrrrrhhhh. Messenger is bust. I hate it when this happens. It just stops working and I can't talk to anyone online. And I get aggravated by this. And then I get aggravated by the fact that I shouldn't be annoyed I can't chat to my friends. And I bet when it does work no-one will be online. Grrrr...

Hmmm yesterday's post was alarming

Hmmm yesterday's post was alarming in it's deepness. I ought to think more even though it hurts me so. I will try to think while watching some tv. Yeah.

Jerry Springer is more evil than Trisha

Everyone has watched Jerry Springer and Trisha right? If not the don't bother, but if you do so happen to watch either programs, make note of the chairs they use. Examples can be seen below. First, is the Jerry Springer Chair, second, is the Trisha Chair.


Now you see the difference between these two chairs? The Jerry Springer one is metal, light and easy to grip making it the ideal weapon in chair form (as used by pro-wrestlers world-wide). Whereas the Trisha chair is heavy, hard to grip and soft making this the least deadly of the chair family. This is further proof that Jerry Springer is (shock horror!) not in it for the good of humanity.Where as Trisha might be. Which ends my Trisha is the Devil theory.

Update as of 11/12/03

I feel I need to

I feel I need to say something. I am a failure and a loser. HOORAY! Because of this I am made strong in God and stuff. Firstly everyone knows the first step in getting over something is acknowledging it exists. So I have to acknowledge I do mess up and do wrong and sin. Which I don't want too and I shouldn't but I do. But in a way this is good because God didn't come down to earth because of all the good people who never messed up. He loves me especially because I do wrong. Which is bizzare but make sense. Which is another thing. I thought a lot and discovered today that Christianity if filled with lots of paradoxes but they all make sense. Which is like some big master paradox coz paradoxes are not made to make sense. Which is just another example of how well everything ties in together and fits perfectly, And if their is no God then the bible is like a someone designing something 1000 years ago that makes everything else in some new machine work perfectly. How can someone not see that God exists. What are they blind. Have they not looked at the stars.. or even at their own body. What this was all chance. I sometimes wish that I didn't see stuff so clearly, so that it didn't seem so obvious. So I could be the 'normal' and not have to care about things like my friends lifes. It would be so much easier to be selfish. But I know that it's worth the effort, and even though I fail continually I have to carry on trying, not that I can ever not fail at what I do, but because through God's power I have already suceeded and all I can do I try to repay his love with mine.

My computer still won't connect to the internet. Grrrrrrrr

Thank you everyone who came

Thank you everyone who came on my walk yesterday it was very appreciated.

I wish my brain had

I wish my brain had auto-dictate

I really do. Because last night I had enough to write an entire book but today I have pretty much nothing. I can't think of anything anyway. I could recount last nights thoughts. But well I can't really. As my brain no longer understands them. Well it gets the gist of them but not the specifics. Basically I am suffering acute burn-out.; Which is like the exact opposite of what people get when they do nothing and it goes on for too long a peirod, but ends up with much the same result. You can't cope anymore and stay in bed for too long. And then you stop doing things. And get ideas to do stuff that will take hours because you feel you ought to be doing stuff. And then you collapse and fall over.

Urk. *thud*

I have found out where

I have found out where all my creative energy into writing intelligent thoughts has gone. Unfortuanately at the moment my brain seems to be writing stuff at in-opportune times leaving me wishing I could write stuff down and then not getting a chance too. and then losing it all. Grrrrr...
But basically today my thought which actually only happened a brief few minutes ago actually is rememberable, I hope. However I have yet too see if what I write is (a) intelligable or (b) stuff I would feel happy to post on this site. I'll write it and see.

xxxxx deleted xxxxx Now you see if I wasn't in such a bad place right now, then this would not have happened you see, but as it turns out I am not in a great place with God right now. I don't really know why. It's not a lack of faith or anything, coz I still know that God is there and obey it all. It just seems harder lately. Not to believe but to like carry out God's work and stuff and be loving and things. But I guess that this is the Devil and most Christians seem to go through a time like this of being tested and stuff. Jesus did so I guess I am okay there. But anyway I digress, the main point of it all is that I xxxxx deleted xxxxx, because we are called to love everyone, but xxxxx deleted xxxxx. and at an easier time I found this fairly easy after I realised some stuff. xxxxx deleted xxxxx. But as it is I do which sucks big time. But luckily (well not luck but still) I realise this so have some common sense in not acting on them and trying not to let them dictate anything I do. So I have to rely on setting myself rules and stuff. Which I do anyway but I have to rely on it more so than normal. So yeah. That sucks. But still wow it's good to express yourself on this thing...

I don't think I will post this but rather e-mail it to my friend Helen. She is a nice independet adujicator. I'll just blank it for the rest of you mortals.

Sorry. I am sure my humourous creativity will come back some day soon.

Guess what? my computer is

Guess what? my computer is still bust..

although it is only the internet connection that is broken. which is good. However I have lost my outlook.pst file which means I have lost all of my e-mails ever sent and all my contacts. Which is a very annoying thing to happen. So everyone e-mail me... just general e-mail me... everything you want to tell me. So I will have a lovely contact list again.

That'll be all

Sorry the recent posts have been so alarmingly poor, but my dad's computer does not produce conductive stuff. I can't seem to think anything of intelligence for me to write... grrrrrrrr.

yeah.... so stuff eh... my

yeah.... so stuff eh... my computer is still bust my friend reckons windows didn't re-install properly

another format of a hard drive for me. Yay!

Arghh frustrated and with no

Arghh frustrated and with no outlet for my frustration... Must go do something constructive but I don't know what. Can't get computer to work properly I am still using my Dad's. Can't even organise a meeting. Am too lazy and stupid.
Going to bed now a failure

Hooray for me

Hahahaahaahah... let it never be

Hahahaahaahah... let it never be said that God does not answer prayer... You see today I was stressing over my Sunday School classes christmas play thingy. And I didn't know what to do with them and was starting to panic as I was the only person who teachers them... But then in the height of my panic... and also when I could not get a key to my cupboard with all my resources in. So in my panic some nice person (called Gareth for the record) asks if my class can take part in their drama of the christmas story. So they do that all morning.. rehearse
as sheep and shephards and angels. WOOHOO!
yeah

man this is soooo the

man this is soooo the hardest age to do kids stuff for christmas plays

too old to sing some cutesy song

too young to do any like acting...

I miss them all dressing up as shepards or angels... that was sooooo much easier

I didn't post yesterday as

I didn't post yesterday as part of some international weblog thing to do with respect for world aids day. today... I went to town... saw my friend Hannah... Got a book... saw my friend Jaclyn (oohh who got it together with a person called Pixxe, who's lovely)

Also saw the film "jay and silent bob strike back" which although not great wasn't too bad... and...
it had a web person in called sparticus who tried to get people to boycott the film coz it was terrible.. hahahaha. quite amusing
and a cool band at the end
so not a waste of money after all